Path cross after 40 years marines?

we got bronze together ,saved each other lives,he lives in ind me colo,i am 80%PT SD 100%DIsable .he is dying from from nam health problems, i did drive to see him,months wife died heart problems ,a month ago his children don't like being around him.he open doors i closed years ago and he has pictures too. he calls need to see me again make him fell good.i am two years in mental health at denver va,last visit with him blew me away nightmares i even thew up looking at pictures of me and him in a village in dong ha,do i go back or not to see him , he sick with pt sd